Thursday, 31 May 2012

Stepping Back

I've been posting less recently, especially on "How To" topics when it comes to writing. This is mostly due to the publisher's comments to write my own story, without worrying about the rules and crits. So I figure, if I'm not reading up on the rules, why should I be writing them?

I have to admit, though, that the other, darker part of the reason I haven't posted is due to the fact that I've lost a little (read: a lot) of confidence in my writing. Yes, I'm writing a manuscript from the heart, so the story conventions aren't being followed by the book. But I've been doing this for so long now that I wonder if I could just keep writing and writing and never be published. I've kind of hit that point where getting published has taken a backseat to a more wishful fantasy-type place (instead of the reality it is during querying), and I'm just writing this story because I have to. I'm taking my time, I'm plodding along, and there's no real panic to get an agent. For now, that's the best way to go, right?

And, you know, on that far away day when I'm actually making some kind of living writing books, I'm going to wish for all the time in the world to work on a manuscript, rather than living with deadlines. Suppose I'd better enjoy it while I can...